DAY 9
Sadness-anguish,grief,heartache ,hopelessness ,melancholy,misery,mourning,poignancy,sorrow,bleakness,dejection,despondency,distress,dolefulness,downer,dysphoria,funk,moodiness.
So, this is some example of this feeling of sadness.
I wanted write about the Sadness in me.I do want to walk and see how this sadness was form in me….,how I allowed ,to grow this emotional pain of sadness in me.This feelings in my physical body I feel in my solar plexus ,i feel this squeezing notion in my stomach….it come sometimes very sudden ,…sometimes it takes time..,but always are tears are fallowed ……
In my life I saw this point is coming from a memory in childhood.When I was small ,my grandmother took me to many awake rituals , after somebody from people she knows pass away,…..and it was in old country ,when the casket was opened and you can see the face of the person …..and with that people ,family of this person who died , express all kind of feelings and emotions in the big way …like a screaming ,very loud crying and..talking to the body in the casket.Seeing this always steer up with me energy of sorrow ….and push me to the point of crying ,seeing other people being so emotional.
Whenever I see somebody crying or be in emotional break down ..it always this have a big impact on me ….I mean I automatic go to my emotions …emotions of sorrow ,and hopelessness and anger ,so i would love to take responsibility on this:
1.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to feel sad or sorrow.
2.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to always be emotional ,when I see or when i am around people who are emotional,who experience sadness or sorrow.
3.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to cary this energy of emotional sadness and sorrow.
4.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself never question this energy of sadness and sorrow.
5.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to became this sad and gloomy person.
6.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to became sad ,to experience sadness ,because I see something horrible in this existence ,not realizing that this not change anything ,just adding more energy to mind personality ,but from real perspective on physicality nothing is change.
7.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to see only sadness and sorrow in people or situation,situation which I only see from point of sadness.
8.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to indulge with this point of sorrow and sadness.
9.I forgive myself to accept and allowed to even have this look on my face of sadness or sorrow,were I think that this is mean, that I care more then others ,because I feel sadness or sorrow.
10.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to use this sadness and sorrow as a point of manipulation,when I want to be perceive by others that I am good one ,because i feel this sadness inside of me.
11.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself, to judge people who do not feel ,this sorrow and sadness the less sensitive and less caring,were in reality it does not matter ,how much do you feel ,only how can you physically change this point.
12.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to be on look out of sad and sorrow situation,in order to feel good about myself ,that I am good person.
13.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself , to never question this addiction to this sad and sorrow emotion and perceive them to be good.
14.I commit myself to stop in me this addiction to this emotion of sadness and sorrow,instead investigate and see how can I in practicality could change this.
15.I commit myself to breathe ,when I see and feel this energy of sadness and sorrow lurking inside of me,to not give in to this energy.
16.I commit myself to move with breathe, with my physical body,in order to stop this energy of sadness and sorrow.
So, this is some example of this feeling of sadness.
I wanted write about the Sadness in me.I do want to walk and see how this sadness was form in me….,how I allowed ,to grow this emotional pain of sadness in me.This feelings in my physical body I feel in my solar plexus ,i feel this squeezing notion in my stomach….it come sometimes very sudden ,…sometimes it takes time..,but always are tears are fallowed ……
In my life I saw this point is coming from a memory in childhood.When I was small ,my grandmother took me to many awake rituals , after somebody from people she knows pass away,…..and it was in old country ,when the casket was opened and you can see the face of the person …..and with that people ,family of this person who died , express all kind of feelings and emotions in the big way …like a screaming ,very loud crying and..talking to the body in the casket.Seeing this always steer up with me energy of sorrow ….and push me to the point of crying ,seeing other people being so emotional.
Whenever I see somebody crying or be in emotional break down ..it always this have a big impact on me ….I mean I automatic go to my emotions …emotions of sorrow ,and hopelessness and anger ,so i would love to take responsibility on this:
1.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to feel sad or sorrow.
2.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to always be emotional ,when I see or when i am around people who are emotional,who experience sadness or sorrow.
3.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to cary this energy of emotional sadness and sorrow.
4.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself never question this energy of sadness and sorrow.
5.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to became this sad and gloomy person.
6.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to became sad ,to experience sadness ,because I see something horrible in this existence ,not realizing that this not change anything ,just adding more energy to mind personality ,but from real perspective on physicality nothing is change.
7.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to see only sadness and sorrow in people or situation,situation which I only see from point of sadness.
8.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to indulge with this point of sorrow and sadness.
9.I forgive myself to accept and allowed to even have this look on my face of sadness or sorrow,were I think that this is mean, that I care more then others ,because I feel sadness or sorrow.
10.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to use this sadness and sorrow as a point of manipulation,when I want to be perceive by others that I am good one ,because i feel this sadness inside of me.
11.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself, to judge people who do not feel ,this sorrow and sadness the less sensitive and less caring,were in reality it does not matter ,how much do you feel ,only how can you physically change this point.
12.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself to be on look out of sad and sorrow situation,in order to feel good about myself ,that I am good person.
13.I forgive myself to accept and allowed myself , to never question this addiction to this sad and sorrow emotion and perceive them to be good.
14.I commit myself to stop in me this addiction to this emotion of sadness and sorrow,instead investigate and see how can I in practicality could change this.
15.I commit myself to breathe ,when I see and feel this energy of sadness and sorrow lurking inside of me,to not give in to this energy.
16.I commit myself to move with breathe, with my physical body,in order to stop this energy of sadness and sorrow.
